On not being a super-mum...

I am finally coming to the realisation that being a mum is hard work, takes me totally out of my comfort zones and that I can't do everything. Hard for someone who by nature likes to be in control, do lots and, sadly, is a still a proud people-pleaser underneath.

The Lord has undone me and continues to show me who he is and who I am and I am once again in a wonderfully humbled and sat at his feet. Well getting there anyhow.

The 'old man' still wants to rule, to be in charge, to do everything. The 'new man', who seems so small at the moment and feeling quite pummelled by the old man, is living in the understanding that actually it's ok to find things hard and run the risk of falling apart and people seeing who he is underneath. BUT at least the new man is there and is letting himself simply 'be' before God: the only place for him to grow strong and outgrow the old man.

Today I listened to David Crowder and one of his songs is my prayer for the moment:

Take my heart, I lay it down
At the feet of You who’s crowned
And take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it up, to You who’s throned

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You, Lord

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And it’s just You and me here now
Only You and me here now

You should see the view
When it’s only You


On the up-side (not that being humbled by God is a down side, far from it, just it's hard), our little man is just absolutely gorgeous and is bringing me huge amounts of joy. One smile and I melt... Tom has put some new photos on his flicker account How lovely is he!!