i am trying to think of the most significant things that have happened recently to be able to put on this site. there are so many - friends getting pregnant, God providing money for us, being able to stay in our house for longer, a lovely retreat day with my wonderful husband. i think most of all though it's the continued attention of God to helping me become whole. i, with the help of a very helpful counsellor lady (I would thoroughly recommend it - so good for the soul!), have been working my way through a bunch of stuff, a lot of which has to do with living up to others' expectations and seeking approval from other places apart from God, even when not really wanting to - just not being able to escape it. it's so hard to face up to some things you don't like apart yourself, but so important in order to be able to fully begin to live the life that God offers you. i am beginning to realise how much i have missed out on already and how much i don't want to miss out on anything else. Lord help me, more, please. thank you for being so merciful and gracious towards me - you blow me away.

i have also been reading 'Disappointment with God' by Philip Yancey as i have some friends,as well as trying to figure out what i think about the healing thing myself, who are struggling with feeling as if God hasn't answered their prayers. it's a very good book and sheds some helpful light on a good perspective to take on things. wel worth a read!