goodness me, what a long time i've been away. It's been an interesting 4 months of total exhaustion necessitating lying down for endless hours, thinking and then having to not think as i was thinking too much, praying, letting go of control, a slow return to work, a trip to America and France and now looking to the end of my role here at Bristol Vineyard in 8 working days' time. It's all a bit too much to go in to, but needless to say it's been an interesting journey. I am currently thinking about a few things:
1. what i am going to do next with my life - what kind of job i shall do, full time, part time, training, intense, light and easy etc etc
2. what Tom and I are going to do next in our lives - tom is finishing his work in law and is taking over my role in the church running Form
3. how much i need God
4. how much i don't need my ways of doing things
5. how much i wish i got it right more of the time so i could avoid the last 4 months!

i guess over all it's a weird time of being happy to finish one thing as it feels as if God has released me to do something new, yet at the same time not really knowing what he's released me to do. I don't feel overly anxious about it all - i think i have lots of things to think about, new times coming to worry, which is good. i guess i just want to move into what's going to be most profitable for the Kingdom.

on a slightly more mundane, earthly note, i just need to say how happy i am to have lovely friends here. Cheers you lot!