oh dear. it's beena long time... Just a sign of much busy-ness. Form is starting next week and so i've been pretty manic trying to get all of that stuff ready. It's amazing how much paperwork it can breed! But we have 5 people coming and we have homes for them all and a pretty good syllabus planned until Christmas and so not much is left to do aside from plan a few sessions and then we're done! Hooray!!!

What else? Not much really, just trying to figure out how best to give money away, how to help people who are mouring, how to react when heaps of my friends are pregnant and it's not the right time for us yet etc etc. Interesting times.

The whole money thing is such a big one for me. Being a trustee of God's resources is a hard job sometimes in trying to figure out what he would best have you do with it. There are billions of starving and very underprivilidged people in the world and yet i have so much. Could it be i have so much so i can give them some (like jacqui Pullinger says, if you see them then you have to do something about it. how many people don't see what's going on in the world as they have allowed themselves to become hard to it. why do i see so much? how can so many people drive along my road and not see the handful of prostitutes who hang out on the corners or in dark shadows? has god given me 'eyes to see' which i need to do something about, or do they others just see them but ignore them?). Or should i look to more immediate surroundings? Or should i try and fight unjust world systems, the cause of much of it. Then again, you have to think too about the nature of poverty and if an ease of that problem is what people really need - surely they need jesus more. How can you give someone something and talk to them about Jesus without them thinking they have to accept Jesus in order to get the gift you're giving. Then if you don't say anything and just give the gift, when do you say the words? I do feel that eventually the words do need to be said. As much as people come along with the 'preach the gospel at all times and if necessary use words' thing, i still can't help but see everywhere in the bible jesus doing things and then explaning why. everywhere...
(not sure i want advice on this one as so many people have so many opinions about it. I'm looking to see what god has for me, today and this week and then the month then the year then fo rmy life. I think he's quite personal about some things...)

so, it's a time of busy-ness and also of many questions. My brain seems to be in hyper-drive!!!